Last night, my sister and I stayed at home while mom and dad went to visit another church. We ended up hanging out and she did my nails!!!! I saw the idea on Pinterest a while back and have been bugging her to do my nails ever since....what a great sister I am! :D Anyway, here's the final result:
Cute huh? :D I'm hoping that I can actually get them to last.....usually whenever I paint my nails they begin to chip in about 24 hours....I'm hoping these last until Friday at least!
Anyway, I didn't have any recipes or workouts to share today, so I thought I'd just share a little about things that have been on my mind recently.
I've really begun to feel comfortable with they way I look. The interesting thing about that is, even when I was at my thinnest, I wasn't happy with myself. Not that I always thought that I needed to lose or even gain weight, I just wasn't happy with me. I didn't always complain about the way I looked....sometimes I was upset about a minor mistake, or frustrated with something/someone else and somehow managed to blame myself. I ended up taking not only my problems on myself, but those of everyone else around me....all while managing to find some way to blame myself for most of it. No wonder I wasn't happy.
Ya'll might have realized this, but I am an extremely type-A person......a perfectionist. According to this website and many others, that personality trait can be very dangerous and act as a major factor in eating disorders. Here's some info from the site:
What if you were surrounded by media messages inferring that, "people will like you more if you have the perfect body, the perfect smile, the perfect skin.....?" You would then learn that, "being perfect makes people like you." If your life felt chaotic, you might feel safer by forming rules for yourself.
In contrast, individuals with the negative form of perfectionism exhibit the opposite characteristics. Goals are extreme, rigid, and inflexible. Rather than taking individual preferences and strengths into consideration, "negative perfectionists" often set goals according to external standards or impossible internal standards. When these goals are not achieved, the individual's sense of identity is threatened and they feel like a failure.
So, what is the connection between perfectionism and eating disorders? An eating disorder is an example of negative perfectionism played out in its most destructive form. In this case, the rigid, inflexible rules apply to eating habits, appearance, and body weight regulation, the effects of which are varied and pervasive. The physical consequences, such as low body weight and poor nutrition, affect concentration and motivation. Interests narrow, energy wanes, and the desire for self-exploration deadens.
So, to finish, I think that something I am learning and growing in is to accept myself. It is ok to try to do my best, but when I beat myself up for every little thing, I just become miserable. I have been truly blessed by .....God to have a family who saw that before I ever did and that has helped me realize that no, I don't have to be perfect. After all, no one can be.
Well, I had better get going....if you stuck with me for the whole post thanks!!!! :D See ya'll later! :D